"I Am Dazzled"

Not that I plan to go in complete chronological order, but I do plan to flow a bit from book to book in the Twilight Saga. I begin with Twilight...and Bella's life-changing discovery of a boy with bronze hair.

An instantaneous reaction

A small amount of time required

For the intrusion to begin

The dormant hope flutters awake

Against the defensive will to fake

As the eyes behold a sight

Becoming powerless to the desire

The heart stimulates

The stomach constricts

All instincts fail to resist

In close proximity

Inexplicable chill and hostility

Rolls off in waves

He visibly disturbed and gone for days

Upon return a softer gaze locks on mine

A careful introduction, an emotional connection

The heart knows no delay

And protective walls begin to fade

His company medicates the pain

Breaks in the heart feel less exposed

Oh the ache for his healing presence

Combined with one from his cryptic message

In character, all I ever wanted and more

Overwhelmed by the degree of complement

I pray wholeheartedly for it to be true

For a blessing and reciprocated love to ensue

I am fearful of the future

I am drawn in and pushed away

I am praying for a blessing in disguise

I am dazzled by the one with golden eyes


COMMENTARY: Overall, this is a reflection of Bella's emotional state in the very beginning of their story, before clarity and declarations are made. The first 2 stanzas reflect them locking eyes from across the cafeteria. The 3rd introduces the biology classroom and it's consequences...the 4th travels into the time when an attempt is made to understand the girl with the silent mind. Stanzas 5, 6, & 7 reflects her feeling besotted but confused. He doesn't leave her alone but he is constantly warning her to stay away. But that is the last thing she wants to do. She is uncertain, but hopeful because any other decision is impossible to live. She wants nothing more than the one who dazzles.


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